April 28, 2011

The First Laugh

"We laugh and laugh, and nothing can ever be sad, no one can be lost, or dead, or far away: 
right now we are here, and nothing can mar our perfection, or steal the joy of this perfect moment." 

Sky and I haven't laughed much this past year.

Sure, there's been plenty of smiles and giggles at something funny Millie has done, the kinds of things that you want to rush to tell someone and end up trailing off with "you just had to be there, I guess...". We have flipped on the television and snickered at our favorite shows, the pixels flashing bright on the screen, our arms or legs overlapping but not feeling connected. We have found joy in small moments, but always apart from each other. We haven't been able to look each other in the eyes when we were happy. I had forgotten how.

But late last night, after his bags were packed to help with the flooding in Illinois, he laid down in our bed smelling like soap and wet hair. I put my hand on his back and felt his skin. We talked for a minute, and then,  it somehow rolled into laughter- uncontrollable, pure laughter. He began laughing how he does at any good joke, with tears pooling at the corners of his eyes, and he wiped them away while new ones formed. And I began laughing at his hysteria. And soon, I couldn't tell you why we were laughing. I only knew that it felt amazing. I only knew that it was just us two, and we shared a moment I have longed to experience for months. It felt like we were away from everything bad in the world, and it was a moment of rest and joy.

So, that's why I picked this song for today's linkup with Goodnight Moon. Because life often gets in the way of things that are the most important. Things like laughing. Because at the end of the world, or just what feels like the end, these moments are what matter. It mattered more than I could ever explain to you.

*apologies again for another YouTube video...playlist.com doesn't seem to like my song choices...
"All I Need" by Mat Kearney

Here it comes it's all blowing in tonight
I woke up this morning to a blood red sky
They're burning on the bridge turning off the lights
We're on the run I can see it in your eyes
If nothing is safe then I don't understand
You call me your boy but I'm trying to be the man
One more day and it's all slipping with the sand
You touch my lips and grab the back of my hand
The back of my hand
Guess we both know we're in over our heads
We got nowhere to go and no home that's left
The water is rising on a river turning red
It all might be OK or we might be dead
If everything we've got is slipping away
I meant what I said when I said until my dying day
I'm holding on to you, holding on to me
Maybe it's all gone black but you're all I see

You're all I see

The walls are shaking, I hear them sound the alarm
Glass is breaking so don't let go of my arm
Grab your bags and a picture of where we met
All that we'll leave behind and all that's left
If everything we've got is blowing away
We've got a rock and a rock till our dying day

I'm holding on to you, holding on to me
Maybe it's all we got but it's all I need
You're all I need

And if all we've got, is what no one can break,
I know I love you, if that's all we can take,
the tears are coming down, they're mixing with the rain,
I know I love you, if that's all we can take.

A pool is running for miles on the concrete ground
We're eight feet deep and the rain is still coming down
The TV's playing it all out of town
We're grabbing at the fray for something that won't drown 


16 kind comments from you:

Anonymous said...

Wow, ok, peopl have me on a crying streak. I LOVE this song and Matt Kearny. What a great story too- laughter truly is one of them best moments we can share with someone. I'm so glad you all got to share that moment before he has to leave you.

Marine Wife Unplugged said...

I've had a couple of moments like that with my husband. Words fail. But that's where the healing, unadulterated laughter fits in perfectly. Excellent.

Amanda said...

Great song. And I'm glad you got to have that moment with your hubby before he leaves. :)

annoyed army wife said...

This makes me smile. I love those moments with my husband.

Ashley D. said...

What an amazing story. I'm glad you and your husband found that moment, and found each other in it. How beautiful, and what a perfect song. Thanks for sharing!

Amber Joy said...

That is a beautiful story !! I made me smile and gave me hope for my future married life... I"m so glad you had that special moment and that you shared it with all of us...
God bless you and your man !!

Semper Fi, Amber Joy

Beautiful song too !!...

heart like mine said...

what a beautiful story. i'm so glad you and sky got to share that moment you've so been longing for.

p.s. i love your song choices--they are always so meaningful.

Mrs.B said...

This made me smile for you two, I've never heard this song before but I like it.

Your stories and your song picks are always so deep, I love it.

Nicole Marie said...

Again, great song. And are you tired yet of how much I tell you I love everything you write? Lol.

I am so glad you and your husband were able to experience such a great moment together, and sharing it with us. I love those moments. Hope your weekend is full of those special moments. :)

Mrs. H said...

What a sweet moment :) And beautiful song! :)

♥Miss Brittney♥ said...

Laughter is so important, especially when you share it with the ones you love. :) Great story and I loved the song!

vintch said...

such a beautiful moment between you two. the best moments are like that. unexpected. beautiful, usually at night when all distractions are put away. bless you, sweet girl.

Anonymous said...

I love those moments where you just uncontrollably laugh. Laughter is the best :)

AmyLee said...

love this song! what a great moment for you guys :) hopefully there are more like it headed your way soon.

Anonymous said...

Mat Kearney is awesome. This song is so pretty.

Beka said...

how did i miss reading this post?!?!

so beautiful it took my breath away.

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