September 5, 2012

The Ordinary


"Destiny is usually just around the corner." 



I'm meant for old brick buildings. I'm meant for ancient, enormous classrooms with that comforting smell of books and pencil shavings. I'm meant for old houses with whistling tea kettles and rooms dedicated just to writing. I'm meant for reading selections of my newly-published poetry book. I'm meant for rain. I'm meant for driving fast, for danger. I'm meant for living in big cities and vacationing in small towns.

I'm meant for England. I'm meant for Seattle. I'm meant for the sea. I'm meant for extraordinary things.

But sometimes I forget I'm meant for the ordinary, too.

There are colored alphabet magnets on my refrigerator door. There is too little space in our apartment and too many tasks on the to-do list. There is still homework that needs doing, laundry that needs washing, closets that need organizing. There are jobs and obligations and there are days I want to run away from all of it.

But there is the local orchard with apples dangling, just tempting Millie and I to visit. There is a downtown with brick streets and pretty cocktails, and it waits for the next date night Sky and I have. There are the nights of softly creeping into Millie's room with Sky, just to see how beautiful she is when she's asleep. And there is me- a girl a couple weeks shy of another birthday- a girl that isn't there yet, wherever there actually is, but is growing and knowing she'll get there eventually.

It's hard to reconcile that this ordinary was everything I always wanted when I always wanted so much more, too. But the truth is that, could I only have a handful of things, I would ask for the very handful I am blessed with at this moment.

11 kind comments from you:

Erika . . . with a K said...

Wow. This post is amazing. Beautifully written and speaks to the soul!

Chantal said...

So beautiful. Brandon and I sneak into Penny's room before bed to say goodnight, laugh about whatever position she's in this time, and smile at how sweet she looks.

Annie Mously said...

<3

vintch said...

such lovely, true words. i have to remind myself that i, too, am meant for such things. it's easy to gloss over them, but they are the meat of life:)

Mrs. K said...

I think I tell you this about every time I comment (ha), but I love your writing. You're so good at it!

JG said...

Love this!

Fran said...

Love it! Fun fact: if you took a picture of my fridge right now you would find the cutest drawing by the cutest girl ever.

Sarah said...

This is beautiful. I love the contentedness that soaks through each word.

lindsay said...

Your words speak to me oh so perfectly.

beka said...

oh my, i love this post.

wanderlynn said...

Lovely! And, speaking from England, with laundry to do and no apple orchards on the agenda, "ordinary" comes wherever you stay long enough.

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