December 29, 2010

Day 29

Prompt: Defining moment. 
Describe a defining moment or series of events 
that has affected your life this year. Author: Kathryn Fitzmaurice

Is it possible to feel gently, quietly angry? Or softly defiant? Because I read this, and thought of two moments that I have blogged about several times in the past month: the birth of my daughter and the crumbling of my relationship with my husband. And I don't feel like writing about either. I'm done with it, for today anyway.

I am tried of looking back on the last year (maybe, then, I should have been smart enough to avoid this Reverb10 project). Why does everything have to be made up of pivotal moments in time? What I long for, in the big unknown of 2011, is a year filled with mediocrity. I don't want big rises that end up in violent crashes. I don't want to think things couldn't be more beautiful, when, in reality, they couldn't have been uglier.

I do not look forward to New Year's Eve- the parties, the room full of people, the countdown at midnight where I'll be alone and unkissed. But, Lord, do I look forward to showering this year down the drain and stepping into some different, cleaner, softer skin.

3 kind comments from you:

Dolli-Mama said...

"What I long for, in the big unknown of 2011, is a year filled with mediocrity."

Me too girl! I will send lots of prayers for normal, boring times your way. I hope 2011 brings you nothing but mundane happiness and quiet joy.

annoyed army wife said...

I applaud us for sticking to this Reverb thing for this long. 2 more days! I'm sick of looking back too. I declined every New Years invite to avoid that moment alone with no one to kiss. I much prefer my ass on the couch with a glass of wine. Here's to a mediocre 2011!

Beka said...

I love that last paragraph. Seriously love it.
Gosh. So true!!!

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