March 18, 2012

R & R

(during R & R)

3 years ago. It doesn't seem like it, but it was- March 18, 2009.

It was Sky's last night of R&R. I had driven the two hours back down to his town the second I got home from work, throwing on the first pair of clean jeans I could find. We wanted to spend just a few more hours together before he had to wake up in the morning and get on a plane bound for Afghanistan again. The details are a little more hazy now, but I do remember drinking half a beer at the pool hall down the street, and spending most of the time in his living room with his mom, step-dad, and brother. He and his brother would call out silly answers to the Jeopardy game on TV, and I remember laughing but feeling a bit heartbroken that it would be ending so soon.

Dusk had settled hours ago, and the moon was out. I was supposed to be at work early the next morning, but Sky persuaded me to stay. Everyone said goodnight, dimming the lights and going their separate ways, and Sky and I tried to fit onto the living room couch. I set the alarm on my phone, knowing I wouldn't be sleeping that night anyway.

Instead, we talked. I don't remember what about, but we talked for hours. We would look up at the ceiling for a moment, and then back at each other. And after a lot of talk, at around 2am that morning, Sky asked me to be his girlfriend. My mouth said, "Of course." My heart said, "At last."

At around 4:30 that morning, in the cold and damp, he walked me out to the curb and stood next to my car. He handed me one of his t-shirts to take home with me. We hugged, and I was scared to let go- scared that if I didn't hug him enough, I wouldn't remember it. Scared that something could happen and I might not be able to ever hug him again. He wiped a few tears from my face, and I silently cursed myself for crying in front of him. But we finally said our goodbyes, and I drove the two hours home alternately sobbing and blinking hard to stay awake.

I sat at my desk later that morning, answering phones slowly and sipping a Starbucks. My eyes burned from keeping my contacts in so long, and my mind was fuzzy. When they asked me if it was worth losing all that sleep, I said yes. When they asked if I really liked that boy, I said, "I really do. And I cannot wait to see him again."

And now, I see him every day.

13 kind comments from you:

Poekitten said...

This made me smile:) And now you have Millie, an adorable piece of each of you. I know it hasn't been easy to get where you are now but it's so worth it.

Thanks so much for sharing!

TheUnlostWanderer said...

This was wonderful to read! I love those stories of the moments when you just KNOW that you're supposed to be with someone forever. I think it's so great of you to be a military wife, I know it has to be a tough thing to do! Your little girl is beautiful!

____j said...

This is such a sweet story to read!

noelani nadine said...

this is an absolutely beautiful story :) i love hearing how love stories initially came to be :) thanks for sharing girl.

Mel said...

I remember those earlier days and how hopeful and exciting and scary and weird they felt. I remember having to convince myself that even though it was the earliest phases of a relationship, that it was worth the wait. It's crazy how you just know, even though it doesn't make any sense, that you should be there when he gets back. :o)

Mrs.B said...

Such a sweet memory thank you for sharing it!

annoyed army wife said...

What a heartwarming memory! And I still hate crying in front of my husband, so I totally get that. ;)

Chantal said...

So sweet. Brandon's R&R was a year ago around this time! Wow, time flies.

Carmen said...

That's such a great post! I hate crying in general so I can imagine how you feel! It's weird to think about Mike on his deployment 3 years ago. Time goes so fast.

Melissa Jaine said...

You gorgeous thing!

Fran said...

Time flies, doesn't it? Love this post :)

Katie Martin said...

lovely post and lovely picture :)

katie
the-mindful.blogspot.com

Holly Robertson said...

OMG! I JUST read this! That is so sweet and amazing.

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