Do you ever get that “wow” moment? The kind that you totally just realized that you are an adult – a real adult. The kind you always wanted to be when you were a kid? I did. And it wasn’t just one moment in particular it just kind of slowly came up and hit me in the face over the past few weeks.
It’s the thought that, “Wow this is it.” I’m 25, I’m married, I have a child and I am an adult. But it doesn’t feel like it. It feels crazy like I should still be in school or that I should still be a teenager. But I am not in school anymore, I am not under my parent’s roof, I am on my own living my own life – a life I never imagined.
As a child, I had the typical dreams of a small girl. I wanted to grow up, become a teacher, fall in love, get married and have children. I dreamed of a husband with a typical 9-5 job and five almost-perfect children who adored us as parents. As I grew older, reality replaced those dreams. I did not become a teacher. I did not marry a man that has a typical job or have a child that is beyond perfect.
But I fell in love. I married a man more wonderful than any dream could have made up. Together, with God’s help we made a beautiful child who has some special needs, but is loved beyond belief.
I did not see this life – military life and life with a special-needs child. It’s not like anything I tried to dream up. It’s hard. It’s even cold and lonely at times. But it’s in that “wow” moment that I realized I am blessed beyond measure. My reality has exceeded my dreams. God has given me more than I could ever ask for. Sure life is hard. There have been moments where I did not think I could go on, but through it all I’ve become a better person and my family is stronger for it.
It’s in these moments that I think, “Wow… this isn’t the life I originally dreamed of, but you know what? It’s even better.”
Have you ever had one of these moments? What dreams did you have that did not come to pass? Is your reality better than your dreams?