October 3, 2012

The Hallway

Late last night, after Sky walked in the door from a long day at work, I showed him the pictures I had put up in our newly decorated bedroom. (I'll show you the entire low-budget makeover soon.) We have had the long frame forever, and I grabbed the only two printed out pictures I could find in the house- one of the two of us all dressed up, and one of our wedding rings- and clipped them in. He said, "You did good, kiddo."

And then we turned, stood in the dark hallway and hugged-more than a passing second, but a real hug. I breathed in the scent of his skin and put my forehead against his shoulder. It felt like the first time I hugged him, like the time I hugged him as he left for Afghanistan, and like the time we hugged when he came home.

For a moment, I remembered it was us. Before Millie. That he was my husband, not just Millie's father. That there was a family when there were just two of us here. It might sound silly that a girl married a little less than three years needs the reminder, but as beautiful as children make our lives, they change things more than I could have ever imagined. And I had forgotten. I married this man before I ever knew Millie would exist. I even married him knowing there was always a possibility she wouldn't.

As we went to bed that night, both of us turned our heads to look at the photos one last time before I turned off my lamp. "We used to do things. We used to go on dates." Sky sighed. Both of us tried desperately to remember when the picture was taken. Sky finally gave up, saying, "It's probably written on your blog somewhere." When I looked today, I realized it was July 1 of last year when that photo was snapped.

A lot of things have happened in these first few years of marriage-more than I ever thought could. There was a lot of good, and there was plenty of bad. We have come through all of it, some things leaving scars or reminders, but we've made it through nonetheless, champions of this relationship we've fought for

I don't want to wait for an anniversary once a year to celebrate it.

Dear husband of mine,

Will you go out with me?


10 kind comments from you:

JRS said...

I miss the way we were but I know no matter what you will always be the girl that unknowingly captured my heart with a list of dreams that framed your personality perfectly.
That being said.....I'm busy that day. ;)

beka said...

ack, this post made me cry.
i'm so happy for you guys....thanking God for all the way He's taken you through this.

Jen said...

This is so sweet!

____j said...

Sometimes I have trouble remembering, too.

Chantal said...

Having a baby really changes the entire dynamic of your relationship. It's so amazing how it does it.

Michelle said...

I think this might be my favorite post ever. SO sweet. I admire you guys so much for sticking it out together.

Karen said...

So sweet. I hope he says yes to a date night :)

Katie said...

We have the same "Love will Save the Day" board!

jax from the harmon squad said...

I love this post! And I had a moment like that the other night too, it was kind of indescribable. But I liked it:) I hope you have many more good times in the future!

Allison said...

I loved this. I have an interesting perspective while reading this since I don't have a baby but so desperately want one. It seems we are always caught up with how we are going to have a baby that even without kids, we are so distracted by them. Thank you for the reminder that we should still take time to soak in our little family of two.

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