June 27, 2013

The Hours We Have Now


"People were always getting ready for tomorrow. I didn't believe in that." 

Tomorrow is the due date.

Tomorrow, my mother will board a plane and fly halfway across the country. For ten days, she won't be the voice on a long distance call or the sender of an email full of recipes. She'll be the excited smile moving past the windows, passengers, and security guards. She'll be the hugs I remember growing up with and the smell of something baking in the kitchen. She'll be the traces of family I see in Millie's small face already.

Tomorrow will be another day of waiting. Of planning and checking the suitcase. Of feeling these kicks against my round belly and wondering who they belong to and when we'll meet.

Tomorrow will likely come and go without another new life just yet. But there is still tonight.

Tonight is life ongoing. Tonight is the cracked door that sends light spilling onto the carpet in Millie's room. Tonight is a moment of putting my head next to hers on the pillow, resting my hand on her curled up form that rises and falls with little sighs, and remembering the nights three years ago when I waited for her. Tonight is a few deep inhaled breaths of life now and life before.

And the hours we have now are still ones of expectation. But they are also ones of the sweetest, fleeting stillness and the fullest hope.

9 kind comments from you:

Marcella{The Life After "Trust Me"} said...

SO excited for you!! Glad your mom is coming!

greaterexp said...

I'd bet your mom will be out there pushing those airplanes to get moving so she can spend some oh, so precious time with you and your family.

charla beth said...

Gosh, i just love you. & Im so happy you get to share this time with your mom.

Mrs. B said...

That's great your mom gets to come and stay with y'all for this exciting time! Funny how pregnancy often mirrors the military 'hurry up and wait' lifestyle ;) Your in the final stretch now!

Jen said...

I'm so excited for you and can't wait to see pictures of this precious little one.

Jenn said...

Good luck to you! Making it to your due date is an accomplishment in itself. So glad your mom will be there to help you too. :)

Mrs.B said...

So happy for you that your mom is coming! And don't judge the fact that every morning I go to your FB page and stalk it for baby news. haha
Hope he or she decides to come soon!

Fran said...

Yay for your mom coming over! All I'm saying is someone better text me when you're on your way to the hospital, whenever that is!

MrsMcDancer said...

Hurry Up Baby P!!!!!!!! Enjoy the time with your mom and hopefully very soon your new little one! {the photos from the maternity shoot are gorgeous-just like you!}

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