February 22, 2011

Rings and Things

"You’ll get over it…” It’s the clich├ęs that cause the trouble[...]
You don’t get over it because "it" is the person you loved. 
This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no-one else can fit it." 

Marriage- I haven't written much on the subject since Valentine's Day. A whole week's silence is unlike me, isn't it? The summing up-Sky and I are both working hard on things. I think I will be moving home soon. I feel like most things are moving forward. 

We discussed using our tax refund to buy new wedding bands, and to get a diamond ring for me. At the mall the other night, we wandered into one of several jewelry stores. The saleslady smiled at a noisy Amelia, and asked if we were getting engaged. "No," I shook my head, "We're already married. Just needing new bands." "Oh," she said, pulling out different trays with beautiful wedding sets. When Sky tried on a band similar to the one he already wears, she mentioned that we might not need to buy him a new band- "unless," she said, "there is a reason?" Neither of us said anything.

There are a lot of things I want, more than a shiny ring, and a lot of things I miss. They are worth so much more than any diamond that store could sell. Because I miss the boy who looked me in the eye and meant everything that look held. I miss the girl who could look back. I don't know if that boy ever existed, or if he did for a while and quickly faded. But I want that man to be my husband. I hope that's the boy who will be proposing again and slipping a ring onto my finger. (And, by the way- he is the one demanding I have a ring. I am the one demanding a new proposal.)

What we don't know is so vast...where life will take us, who we'll be 20 years down the road, how many children or jobs or cars we'll have...but the one thing that should be-must be- constant is our love. Heartaches from outside forces (deployments, money stress, etc.) can be handled. Heartaches from each other should be few to none. 

We're trying.


5 kind comments from you:

Elizabeth said...

maybe I'm just super out of the loop, but I'm sorry things are whatever they are right now :( I hope for the best. I hope you get an awesome proposal, and a sexy new ring :P

annoyed army wife said...

Um, am I the only one who is slightly annoyed with the sales lady? When we were looking at wedding rings the sames people were totally overstepping their bounds. This lady should keep her trap shut and show you the sparklies. Not asking what your reasons are for getting new bands. I so wish you two the best.

Goodnight moon said...

Okay, I simple love that you said your "demanding" a new proposal! That is awesome! I'm so glad that your both moving forward with each other. Sending you positive energy.


Beka said...

humph. that sales lady. i have too many thoughts and you said be kind, so i'll just shut it:) some people can be annoying! like..um...it's OUR life, lady. i don't know you.

i'm with you on the new proposal. hope that goes well when you come to that bridge.

i love that first quote up there. and the last paragraph you wrote? wow. so true.

Elizabeth said...

A new proposal with new promises is a GREAT place to start. 4 years ago hubby and I went through something that rocked our marriage to the core and I wasn't sure we were going to make it. Needless to say we are happier than we have ever been, it was a long hard road but if you are both willing to fight for your marriage it is worth it. I wish you the best.

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