March 23, 2011

Done With What We've Lost

"we're glad for what we've got
done with what we've lost
our whole lives laid out 
right in front of us"
-Existentialism on Prom Night by Straylight Run 

This song link-up with Goodnight Moon is more the type of song I would listen to in high school. There's a reason for it, though. The regimental ball is Saturday. I'm not happy about it for the reasons you think.

You see, I may joke about it being our prom. I may be excited about my beautiful gown, my lovely updo, or a chance to see my husband in his dress uniform. But really, if only in my own heart, it's a kind of official start over. It's something new.

I feel, in some small way, that Saturday is a make-up day. A new wedding. And maybe the Strong Bonds Army marriage retreat we'll be attending a couple weeks from now will be a makeshift honeymoon. We didn't get a honeymoon the first time around, but I feel so deeply about wanting to invest in our relationship this time. I want hope to spring up in our relationship just like the flowers beginning to blossom this time of year.

I look forward to taking photos with bright flashes in the dim ballroom light. I long for the moments before, when I'm putting on mascara as Sky straightens his bow tie. I'm excited for the breathless laughs, the attempts at a slow dance, and the introductions and handshakes. It's not a girly dream of a fancy party like so many people think, though.

It's a wish for beginnings. 

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Full lyrics:
"Existentialism On Prom Night" by Straylight Run
 When the sun came up,
We were sleeping in,
Sunk inside our blankets,
Sprawled across the bed,
And we were dreaming.

There are moments when,
When I know it and
The world revolves around us.
And we're keeping it,
Keep it all going,
This delicate balance,
Vulnerable all knowing.

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would (2 times)

Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything.
We're glad for what we've got,
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out right in front of us.

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would (2 times)
Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything.  

P.S. Thanks to Charla for reposting my article on her blog today, Heart Like Mine. Go check it out.


12 kind comments from you:

Beka said...

love the song.
and the post. so hopeful.
i can't wait to hear about how saturday goes! only so many more days....

Anonymous said...

Awwww... I hope you have so much fun this weekend and at the retreat! There is hope in my heart for you that it will be all you ever wanted this time around! (((hugs!)))

Consider The Lilies said...

i hope your night is perfect :D

Mrs. Mootz said...

I hope you have an amazing night!

annoyed army wife said...

I love the way you are framing this weekend. OccDoc and I did a engagement retreat a few years ago and it was fantastic. We're headed to a marriage retreat in a couple of weeks, too. I'm right there with you know that a marriage is something you need to take the time and effort to invest in. I hope this weekend is the beginning you're looking for.

charla beth said...

this is beautiful.

i hope your night at the ball is everything you are dreaming it will be. i hope it will be refreshing and romantic and everything you both need to fall in love all over again.

p.s. that song is one of my favorites, also :)

Goodnight moon said...

See....I knew you would do such a great job linking up this week. You always pick the perfect songs with so much meaning. I love it! I scroll to the bottom and play your song and then read your words you wrote, which make the meaning even more special! I'm so excited for you, it's like your living your romantic ever after story! Love it!!!!

Gaile said...

Awesome choice - and I think a lot of us are praying for new beginnings these days!

I think I'm getting a new beginning of my own, but am not ready to blog about it yet. SOON, though, I promise.

Have fun this weekend!

Ashley D. said...

What a beautiful song! Wow! Thanks for sharing your hope for the Regimental Ball. I hope it the new beginning you've been praying for.

Anonymous said...

Such a beautiful song. My prayers are with you that you find the beginning you deserve!

____j said...

I was definitely obsessed with this song in high school. Brings back a lot of memories.

Mrs. H said...

Wishing for your new beginnings as well!! :)

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